And You Will Play…

Graphic by CoPilot AI – You have no idea, kid….

I remember the whole thing this way.

When I was 10, I was told that anyone in our grade and above could try out for band. That sounded fun, and so the day it was set up at school, I headed to it.

There were a lot of other kids there, and the town band directors and our music teacher were shepherding us from instrument to instrument. We were to try out on whatever we wanted to.

I wandered from table to table trying to figure out what I was REALLY excited about. When I first heard about this try-out thing, I hadn’t really put much thought into just what I wanted to choose. That happened on the fly in the classroom.

I then decided to try the trumpet. I headed back to the table, and the teachers had already cleared off most of the instruments. One of them told me that they needed to be careful about how many students signed up for the various instruments. They needed a reasonable balance of sounds for the band, and having 70% Drums, 25% Trumpets, and 5% “Other” wouldn’t work.

I asked if anything was left. I was shone three instruments: French Horn, Tuba, and Baritone Horn. I gave each one a shot. The French Horn seemed ridiculous – all those pipes and tubes swirling around – and the mouthpiece felt like a razor on my lip, so not that one. The Tuba was intimidating and heavy, and I could not figure out why the mouthpiece had to be so big. So, the last one I tried was Baritone Horn. It seemed kind of off since the bell of the horn bent to one side. The mouthpiece wasn’t too bad – not as bad as the other two instruments. So Baritone Horn it was.

I think the band director was happy about this. Apparently there aren’t that many students that land on playing the baritone horn. So right away, I was both valuable and a visible oddball.

Nothing’s changed.

Music is the River, but the Shore Keeps Moving…..

Recording at Home - 2019

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I have been casting about for a long time for someplace to focus my creative energies away from day-to-day and toward an endeavor that feeds my soul. I have tried a few different ones over the years, including some obvious ones, like:
  • reading
  • writing
  • movies
  • creating jewelry
  • drawing
What I found out about each of these is:
  • I love reading, but it’s not really creative on my part, and I don’t have the visual stamina (my eyes tire easily…) to crank into the volume of reading I aspire to.
  • While I like writing well enough, it isn’t enough of a compulsion for me to call it a true creative outlet.
  • Movies are fun, but, again, not really creative on my part.
  • Creating jewelry has been pretty fun for over 20 years now, but I do it only a couple of times a year. Again, the drive / compulsion to create in that medium isn’t there to enough of a degree for me.
  • Drawing….kind of fun, but basically I really suck, so not so much fun as it should be…
This leaves what should have been an obvious choice for me: music.
Although my parents didn’t play instruments, I grew up in a household that had music playing nearly all the time, and in which I was encouraged to play and explore. I started baritone horn lessons in fifth grade (our school district had the band directors giving weekly private lessons to every band student throughout the school year, which was a HUGE advantage…) and had decided that I wanted to be a musician by the time I was high school junior. I composed my first piece of music for a small jazz group at that time (it is entitled “Clams“, a nickname for a missed note when you play….seemed appropriate!), and haven’t really stopped composing in one form or another, ever since.
…However, the technology, broadly defined, has rocketed along. My early days as a composer / keyboardist had me using a Wurlitzer electric piano enhanced with a phase shifter, ring modulator and wah-wah pedal, recording to cassette recorder via a single microphone. Today’s default for a lot of composing is a DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) of some kind, a controller (maybe…) and a lot of computer-focused work. This isn’t necessarily  a bad thing, but the shift from analog to digital changes a lot of concepts in approaching composition, and I have other ‘legacy’ equipment (synthesizers, sound modules, sequencers and the like) that I hate to leave in the box, as I feel there is a lot to be gained by incorporating them all into the compositional mix, and the sounds are more authentic to what I hear in my head than many of the virtual sound modules I hear….also, the sounds that I hear reflect the talents of the numerous monster players I’ve had the pleasure and privilege of playing with over the years, and no virtual module can model them. It is a dilemma….
Nonetheless, I am excited to dig into the new stuff, incorporate the older stuff, and see what I can come up with. It is nice not to have a driving timeline to be pushed by, other than my internal desire to get what I hear in my head out into the world in a  way that sounds more and more like what I’m hearing. As I remarked to someone yesterday, I was able to create a short tune last week that that sounded only moderately spastic instead of remarkably bad, which is progress!
This part of the journey is proving to be more fun and a bigger challenge than I was expecting, which calls me further into the journey.
Yeah, this is what I have been looking for…